Thank you past…I am done.

The foundation course at Crossfit introduced me to the idea that doing Crossfit was going to be about far more than a physical thing. It for me was all about my head and where that would allow me to go.

I am the person that my past has made me… that my parents, my school life, my friends, my academic abilities, my size, my choices of partner, how I partied, what I decided to do as a job.  All make me what I am today.

But…

I am not so keen on that idea anymore  not so keen on allowing things that often I didn’t choose because I wanted to, but I felt I deserved shaping who I am and what I CAN do. Or becoming the person that other people think I was worth.

I want to be able to celebrate my victories, at Crossfit and in life generally. To understand that it is ME that has worked for them, that not just ‘everyone’ can do it, it doesn’t matter if ‘everyone’ can do it, if I couldn’t do it 6 months ago, and I can now do it because I have kept trying. THAT IS IMMENSE.

I didn’t quit.

I didn’t walk away.

I picked up that bloody skipping rope again and again.

I added more weight to the bar even though everything in me was screaming ‘you won’t get this’

I took a breath and kicked my legs up in the air (and squealed like a total girl)

So you know what….I can do this, bit by bit.

And now I need to do the biggest part of this, I need to believe it and appreciate it. And that is going to be the biggest challenge I have possibly encountered.

But I have good people around me, literally shouting for me and at me. They believe, so I need to respect them and do that too.

January 2013- I can’t

Do a muscle up

Do a handstand  18/4/13 I can do a handstand

Do a overhead squat with the 15kg bar 23/4/13 I can do an overhead squat with the 15kg bar

Do an unassisted kipping pull up

Rope Climb

Do a double under 28/1/13 Got my first double under 11/5/13 I can string 5 double unders together

Do 100 burpees 12/5/13 Did 100 burpees in 9 minutes 18 seconds.

Back Squat I can now back squat 16/3/13 42kg 9/4/13 65kg

Front squat I can now front squat 12/3/13 34kg 26/3/13 45kg 18/4/13 50kg 2/5/13 51kg

handstand